When you wake up and everything seems boring and futile to you, [...] when you are not satisfied with anything, not even with your personal belongings, when you have no sexual desire and refuse romantic relationships, when you are tormented by uncontrollable thoughts that often touch the boundaries of the absurd, when you wish for the day to end quickly so you can sleep and forget [...] when you find yourself solely responsible for everything, when you love death more than life and consider it redemption - are all these not depression?